Gray or Blue

I feel so helpless now, my guitar is not around
And I'm strugglin with the xylophone to make these feelings sound
And I'm remembering you singing and bringing you to life
It's raining out the window and today it looks like night

You haven't written to me in a week I'm wondering why that is
Are you too nervous to be lovers, friendships ruined with just one kiss
I watched you very closely I saw you look away
Your eyes are either gray or blue I'm never close enough to say

But your sweatshirt says it all with the hood over your face
I can't keep staring at your mouth without wondering how it tastes
I'm with another boy; he's asleep, I'm wide awake
And he tried to win my heart, but it's taken time

I know the shape of your hands because I watch them when you talk
And I know the shape of your body 'cause I watch it when you walk
And I want to know it all but im giving you the lead
So go on, go on and take it, don't fake it, shake it

Don't second guess your feelings you were right form the start
And I notice she's your lover, but she's nowhere near your heart
This city is for strangers, like the sky is for the stars
But I think it's very dangerous if we do not take whats ours

I'm winning you with words because I have no other way
I want to look into your face without your eyes turnin away
Last night I watched you sing because a person has to try
And I walked home in the rain because a person cannot lie

Take a look at the total!

We went to coldstone, he and I. And plenty of other people... But we still went to coldstone and it was lovely.

Quote(s) of the Day

"For all sad words of tongue and pen, the saddest are these, 'It might have been'."

- John Greenleaf Whittier

"To love is to suffer. To avoid suffering, one must not love; but then one suffers from not loving. Therefore, to love is to suffer, not to love is to suffer, to suffer is to suffer. To be happy is to love; to be happy then is to suffer, but suffering makes one unhappy; therefore to be unhappy one must love or love to suffer or suffer from too much happiness. I hope you're getting this down."

- Love and Death

So guess what? Guess what I did? Why aren't you guessing huh? huh? huh? Oh okay fine I'll just tell you...

I went driving a lot! And I didn't even kill anybody or anything like that!

It was great!

Oh gosh I miss my dearest kumquats so much! Actually only B-shizzle and Marisa-ito are gone, but I miss them very muchly! I never used to miss people that much when they were gone or when I was gone from them, but now I do. Now I miss people every minute of everyday of my life. I miss people that I see everyday that I really have no right to miss them cuz I just saw them but I miss them anyway (did that make any sense at all or are you just as lost as I am?), I miss people that I never see that I wish I saw everyday, I miss people that I used to know a long time ago that I haven't seen for a very long time, I miss people that I don't even know yet!

It's rough missing people...

But one good thing about missing people is that you love them more when you're with them ya know? You try to make the most of every second with them so that you won't regret anything when they leave again. Or when you leave again. Or you both leave.

The problem is that sometimes it doesn't quite work out and you feel worse when you leave then you did when you were originally missing them...

Shall we?

It's finally fall break! Shall we celebrate? All right, we shall.

Except we have a problem...

Everyone is on vacation! Have you ever tried to have a party by yourself? Because no one else can come? Well let me just tell you, it's somehow not quite as enjoyable as having a party with fer reals people. So do you know how I spent my first day of fall break? I had a party with some of my bestest friends: my pillow, my comforter, and the fourth Harry Potter book.

Not to mention the healthy snacks I have left over from Nexus since I'm out of candy.

But you know, it was still a good day. I got caught up on my relaxing and sleeping and being lazy and not doing anything useful. I was a bit behind on all of those things.

You wanna know what I decided? I'm ready for a little bit of cold. For a little bit of sweaters and hoodies and layers and boots and hot chocolate and fireplaces and slippers. For a little bit of cozy.
See what I mean? It looks delicious doesn't it?

Here's To You

Her name was Kelsy and she cared. Se cared enough to stop, to ask. She cared enough to take time away from her own drama, from her own problems, from her own stress and tears and heartache. She cared enough to help a stranger. To talk to a girl she didn't know, that she had never seen before. She lit up the day and touched the heart of the stranger and all who saw her kind deed.

Here's to you Kelsy.

Here. Take a gumball. Or lots of them. They made me smile.

Guess what I learned today? and the day before? and the day before that? and just about everyday that I have access to a computer? (which is almost everyday in case you were wondering)

Checking everybody's blogs every 10 minutes doesn't make them post more often.

It would be really nice if it did, but it doesn't. It's kind of pathetic how addicting blogging is ya know? It's like chocolate. Or swedish fish. Or Reese's peanut butter cups.

It's delicious.

Quote of the Day

"You have to always give 110%! Life's too short to do anything else."

-John from Nexus

Don't Forget

Do you remember when the world was magic? Do you remember when every fantasy and fairytale was as real as the sun rising and my late math assignments? Do you remember when every story had a happy ending? Do you remember when the villain was always the villain and the hero was always the hero? Do you remember when the knight in shining armor always rescued the princess and he was always wonderful and she always deserved him? And you always got to be that princess because you had the world's biggest imagination and the dress up trunk to match? Do you remember when you were the greatest person on earth and you knew it? Do you remember when you could do anything? Do you remember?

Please don't forget.

2nd of All

I miss you. And I want to talk to you.

3rd: I need more iTunes giftcards

4th: I smiled a lot today

5th: And I laughed

6th: And we're having a carmel-apple-making-Letters-to-Juliet-ice-cream-eating party tonight

7th: So I'm really doing okay, you know?